Quick update

Helloooooooo - I don't really have too much to say, but....well, that's a lie. I have a ton to say, but I don't want to. Not yet. However, I DO want to give you a little update as to the whereabouts my love life is at the moment, etc.

So Chris and I? We ended that Friday night - the night in which I posted and promised to be single by the next night (which would've been Saturday night). He hasn't been calling or texting or emailing or anything. Well, he DID email me on Sunday night with some apologies, etc. for all of his drinking and his feeling responsible for the relationship going awry so quickly. I accepted his apology and told him not to beat himself up over it because I have my own issues that added fuel to the fire, etc. Then I got a IM thanking me for pointing out his drinking problem to him and that he was getting the help he needed, etc. and that our relationship served as a godsend type thing, so that he could take care of it before it got too bad. I thought the email was nice, and appreciated. Ok, buh bye. I think that was the last I'll hear from him. He served a purpose for me, as well - confidence booster. Thank you, Chris.

However, I should never have let Adam back in my after that confidence boost. He has such a way of making me feel fat, ugly and rotten from the inside out. Why did I let him back in, even if not fully? I spent much of a couple of nights this week in tears...over Adam...again. WHY do I give him so much power? Ick. Anyway, I've come to my senses, started back at therapy and started reading Eat Love Pray (LOVING it!), along with checking in on It's Called a Break Up Because It's Broken from time to time.

On another note, I'm totally hating my job. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the baby. Love. But I don't like his mother and it's taking it's toll. So, today folks, I gave my landlords my notice that I'll be moving out by the end of October. I'm moving, friends. Not sure where, but I'm moving. Out of state. I'm going to take advantage of the fact that people are paying people like me good money to take care of their children in areas other than Boulder, CO. I'm really excited, really nervous and (did I mention) really excited!

Also, I saw Jonny Lang last night! I had 2 tickets, and when I bought them, Chris was going to go with me. But I bought them and I really wanted to go. I had NO idea who to take. None. I don't really have any friends here that like to see music shows unless they know them and know they like that particular artist/band. I used to drag Brendan (although I didn't ever have to drag him - he was always more than willing) to shows a lot when he lived here, Alex was always up for a good show when she lived here and so was Brooke before she moved to Colombia. Ugh. I thought about taking my mom - she's into good music. But then I was so torn because so is my stepfather. Ugh. I even pondered giving them both the tickets and forfeitting the show all together so that they could go together. Then it hit me! It's general admission and not sold out...so I called my mom and they just bought one more ticket and the 3 of us went. It was perfect! And the show??? UNBELIEVABLE! This little white guy (26 years old) came out on stage and rocked the socks of the entire crowd for 2 and a half hours! He'd speak to the audience, between songs, in this tiny little sweet voice and then once he started playing music it was like it took over his entire being and controlled him - this AMAZING, soulful, deep yet high at times, voice BELTED out and his guitar playing skills were phenomenal! If ever you have the chance, check him out! SO worth it. SO!

Hmmmm...what else? I have this horse clinic on Sunday with Belle. I'm excited - it's about learning trust and conquering fears, etc. using your horse and their intuition and senses, etc. I'm not super clear on how it will work (obviously by my explanation), but I'll let you know next week. Belle has been an absolute angel for the past week, so I'm not sure what issues she and I will work on with the "horse whisperer." I've been riding her bareback, with just a halter, even out in the pasture with the other horses, as sort of a test to see if I could control her. She passed with flying colors! It wasn't too long ago that I couldn't even control her with a big huge saddle and a big ole steel bit in her mouth! My my my, how consistent and hard work pays off! Go Belle! Go Nissa, actually. I worked so hard with her for the past 7 months and she's really responded well! Wheeeeeeeeeee! Just in time for me to leave her! Ugh. Belle, I will mis terribly!! And the riding, it's good for my soul. I'll miss that. Geez, I hadn't thought of that. Well there have to be horses wherever it is I'm going, right?

I guess I had more to say than I thought. That's always fun.