Oh...and by the way?

Maybe two days after my big: "Life is good," post, I had a total meltdown. When my brother and I were texting about how exciting it is that they're having another baby, he replied with: "Yes. Now all we're missing is the beach and YOU!" The guilt. As if I hadn't already thought of how much I'm going to miss being around this baby. And then on top of that, I JUST found a great job...but then I got a text of a seemingly WONDERFUL job which would place me in Boulder, Maui, Aspen and some other fabulous place...jet setting all over the world with a very rich (and down to earth, nice) family and their newborn. Ugh - I was questioning everything that I had felt so sure about just days earlier. It was awful! But I called my best friend in Rhode Island and she talked me down from the ledge, so to speak. Then, LUCKILY(!), I had acupuncture that very evening. *He* (wonder of all wonders, as a man) fixed my head. I'm totally serious - if you don't have an acupuncturist...find one. Amazing. But THEN I managed to have such a GREAT weekend, reminding me (once more) of why I'm staying here and why I love it so much. It was one of my greatest friends' little boy's 1st bday... It was SO great to begin the tradition of all of us finally being in the same place, and sharing in the lives of our children and husbands (ok - I'm the only one who doesn't have at least ONE of the afore mentioned, but still!) and all of that good stuff that has become so important. After the bday party, all the grandma's took the kids and we (my core group of girls and their significant others) all went to dinner and out after that for drinks. It was SO much fun and just so so nice to be able to spend the time together - one of our friends didn't make it because she had to work, but I was able to pick up her daughter (also 1 yr old) and take her to the party with me, so she wouldn't miss out. Our one pregnant friend and her husband went home after dinner, but it was a great time had by all up until that point, too. I'm so glad I'm here. I really am. Now if I can just feel a little bit calmer about moving in a week with NO furniture or anything else. Man. Deep breaths. Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh. It'll all work out, I know it will.